#530 We were always meant to say goodbye.

I think alot since yesterday and i got my answers..i guess..
where should i start now?hmmm.
well,it's been time that i really spilled everything on my blog-.-then now i shall spill it! :D on purpose!whoops!*knocked off the glass of water* -.- uhhh i dont get what im talking about to,ignore that.anyway.
i thought that i will never want to let go although i want it really badly deep down but the time had finally arrived and im quite pleased with myself for starting to let go.I kept finding excuses i guess,all these while just to not let you go =s
i'm not gonna detial everything cause it's like..private?LOL.anyhow.when i was with you all day and..with someone else of course,im actually comparing you with another,asking myself questions like "what's so great about you that i had wasted so much time on while we are neither moving forward or backwards" and then i realised it.[it's not actually wasting it's just that,something blinded me,somehow,i couldnt explain this part.]and when ahem,ahem,ahem! i actually wished that you were someone else.i feel bad somehow but my girls told me it's kinda normal?well,maybe,i dont know cause it's been time that i like someone else other than you.but then still,*i hate this part*i realise i still cant completely let go but am letting go.cause i found out that the one that i wished he was you,he can melt my heart like you used to and perhaps,he will be better.wait,he IS better,no doubts about that.if you miraculously reading this,i miraculously apologize?Lili will slaughter me for being so polite with you-.-lol,i wonder why ppl hate you tho,hmmp.lols.anyway,i bet you are now,doing the same thing as i am now,i understand what you're doing,that's why im starting to let go too,so yea,hope we would still be friends:)
*to be frank,there's alot more that i want to say but somehow,it's stored inside my head,i dont know how to take it out and type it here.but then,this will be the last post of you.i realised im starting to keep things inside,this aint me*